Pretty Lunatic

Today feels like college all over again--- only worse.

One of the big bosses met up with me and appointed me to be the EIC of this upcoming R & R project at work Thursday morning. For several times I asked him how he knew that I used to write but he just gave me this big smile back every time I asked. We discussed matters for over an hour and butterflies raved in my stomach the entire time. He said that he wants me to rise and be recognized when I told him that I was happy where I was. He said that they saw a lot of potential in me and that I have yet to show more of what I am capable of doing incase I change my mind about wanting to move up in the future.

I tugged on my jacket's big green button the entire time. I knew I was ambivalent about the task. A part of me wants it more than anything and a part of me just doesn't. Of course I want the recognition, I was more than honored to be chosen to spearhead the project but taking responsibility for everything just kills me. I have enough matters to think of at home and extra work aside from work, would be over doing it--- I think.

I haven't written in a while, and I know that I'm worse than rusty. I've got a deadline to beat on Thursday and I'm all blank. I'm just glad that I have found several people who were interested to work with me. And this is only the first month of the eternity I would be spending editing and writing stuff that should be delivered at the end of every month.

I'm just really anxious to get the first issue published. That's only when I could rest my weary mind. But just like any other home tv shopping ad: "But wait, there's more!" , the project calls for a Townhall meeting in which I would have to present the newsletter in front of a whole bunch of people. I hate--- no, that's too subtle, I resent speaking in front of a large group of people. I would rather die an ugly death than do that. Anything, anything but that!

I'm a wreck and I haven't even started yet. My lucky stars are doing the right thing but heaven, or whoever's up there, help me, please!

Labels: oh the stress, work

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Aileen: wow! goodluck kait!
hm... i am looking forward to reading that newsletter. Ü; July 25, 2009 1:44 PM
Kaitlin: hehe. thanks ai! *hugz*; July 25, 2009 5:31 PM

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Saturday, July 25, 2009

Weekend Wreck

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I live in my own little world... But it's ok, they know me here.
Saturday, July 25, 2009 Weekend Wreck Today feels like college all over again--- only worse. One of the big bosses met up with me and appointed me to be the EIC of this upcoming R & R project at work Thursday morning. For several times I asked him how he knew that I used to write but he just gave me this big smile back every time I asked. We discussed matters for over an hour and butterflies raved in my stomach the entire time. He said that he wants me to rise and be recognized when I told him that I was happy where I was. He said that they saw a lot of potential in me and that I have yet to show more of what I am capable of doing incase I change my mind about wanting to move up in the future. I tugged on my jacket's big green button the entire time. I knew I was ambivalent about the task. A part of me wants it more than anything and a part of me just doesn't. Of course I want the recognition, I was more than honored to be chosen to spearhead the project but taking responsibility for everything just kills me. I have enough matters to think of at home and extra work aside from work, would be over doing it--- I think. I haven't written in a while, and I know that I'm worse than rusty. I've got a deadline to beat on Thursday and I'm all blank. I'm just glad that I have found several people who were interested to work with me. And this is only the first month of the eternity I would be spending editing and writing stuff that should be delivered at the end of every month. I'm just really anxious to get the first issue published. That's only when I could rest my weary mind. But just like any other home tv shopping ad: "But wait, there's more!" , the project calls for a Townhall meeting in which I would have to present the newsletter in front of a whole bunch of people. I hate--- no, that's too subtle, I resent speaking in front of a large group of people. I would rather die an ugly death than do that. Anything, anything but that! I'm a wreck and I haven't even started yet. My lucky stars are doing the right thing but heaven, or whoever's up there, help me, please! Labels: oh the stress, work Kaitlin posted at 8:36 AM Links to this post: <\$BlogBacklinkControl\$> <\$BlogBacklinkTitle\$> <\$BlogBacklinkDeleteIcon\$> <\$BlogBacklinkSnippet\$> posted by <\$BlogBacklinkAuthor\$> \@ <\$BlogBacklinkDateTime\$> <\$BlogItemBacklinkCreate\$> 2 Comments: Aileen wow! goodluck kait! hm... i am looking forward to reading that newsletter. Ü July 25, 2009 1:44 PM Kaitlin hehe. thanks ai! hugz July 25, 2009 5:31 PM Post a Comment << Home	Insane! lu.na.tic ('lu-na-"tik) adjective 1 a : affected with lunacy : INSANE b : designed for the care of insane persons (lunatic asylum) 2 : wildly foolish (a lunatic idea) ~ Nullum magnum ingenium sine mixtura dementiae ~ Voices In My Head Pretty Lunatic Has Moved Unsent Boot Camp Break Goodbye, Peter Pan Fallout Breathe Swine Scare Save the Rainforest Origins The Psycho Ward Jessica Rules The Universe 3 Shots Of Espresso Bryanboy: Le Superstar Fabuleux The Girl In the Glasses Alaism Fruityoaty Discombobulation Frequent Flyer Diaries Queer Chef Laurganism The Tattooed Mama Clever Girl Goes Blog Touched by An Angel Case Files Delicious Design Studio Roxy Hot Topic Amazon.com David and Goliath Etsy Artbeads.com Avalon.ph Deviant Art This work is licensed under a Creative Commons 2.5 License.